Thank You Lord for the opportunity you have given me to want to share my life and my journey with You with others. Thank You for the Joy and Love you give me and Thank You for being who You are.
I remember me last year, I had no worry in the world, I was just content with the way I was living. Now to clarify myself I have never not been an unbeliever, I was that type of ‘Christian’ who went to church on Sundays, sometimes listened to gospel music and occasionally prayed (mostly when I wanted something like finances, success in my exams and sometimes forgiveness). I grew up in the Church so I knew all the bible stories but if I am to be honest with you, Christ wasn’t living in me.
Now, I have always been the ‘moral’ kind, I’ve done what is right in the eyes of man- (good grades, never been in trouble with the Law, graduated from university, pursuing my Masters degree.) I would like to believe I am trustworthy, friendly, giving, honest and nice (these are the kind of things my friends say about). But my walk with Christ only properly ignited last year, 2014 …. the 22nd year of my life and it ignited because Christ picked me and wanted me to be a part of his flock! I will like to say Christ arrested my soul!
How did Christ Arrest My Soul?
Before I describe how he arrested my soul I would like to remind you of something that I have to remind myself all the time. It is Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. Please remember that our God is not a wicked God, he has plans for us to succeed, to blossom and to excel. Having this in mind in 2014, someone dear to me was diagnosed with a cancer. In my last post I described how last year I weeped, I cried and mourned well this was primarily why. I remember the first thing in my mind was DEATH. I did not believe in Psalm 118:17 that “I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done” and I ignored what Jesus said about Lazarus in John 11:4 “This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God’s glory so that God’s Son may be glorified through it.”.
After I weeped and already concluded that cancer equals death, I then started questioning God. I basically started making excuses for myself, I would say in my heart that I am a better person than most people on earth yet way am I suffering. I would complain that God is punishing his servant (this person diagnosed with cancer is a born again Christian) and why? Looking back, I’m sure God was just laughing at my ignorance. Now I know God planned this, He did that to bring me closer to him and Lord, Thank You because it worked!!
Thank You Lord
We are now in 2015 and it has been a some months since I first received the news about cancer and firstly I just want to thank God because I have not had to mourn over this person. We are winning the fight against cancer and I want to thank God in advance because I know the battle has been won. I thank You Lord because you are my Comforter and You have given me a peaceful spirit. Lord, “even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me” (Psalm 23: 4). Thank You for the friends you have given me, friends who pray with me and pushed me to want to run to you my strong tower.
Jonah and the Big Fish
My friend that is on this Christian journey with me, she reminded me about the story of Jonah and we always make jokes about how we can’t run from God’s will. Jonah was fortunate that he was swallowed by the whale, some people have to go through some traumatic experiences before they stop being stubborn and turn to the Lord. Now I am not saying that now I am perfect or sin-free because I am still very far from where I would like to be. From 2014 and even this year I have asked God for forgiveness countless times. This walk with Christ is definitely a walk, it is not a jog or run or a sprint but I know God is doing something and I know I am changing.
There is a reason why I have called this blog The Modern Psalmist and simply put it is because I do not want to stop praising the Lord. I will post further about how the name came into my mind and why I decided to start posting about Christ.
I hope this will help someone somewhere and I pray that God’s plan for us will be materialised.
– Stay blessed
“I know that You can do all things. Nothing can put a stop to Your plans” – Job 42:2